Tuesday, March 30, 2004
All is fine with the little fairy.Really.She is fine being alone with friends.One friend at least.And the Prince is not around.Only when the Prince is around that she has to deal with getting used to being just friends.But he is not.She avoids her family because she does not want to talk about it.Talking about it only reminds her that it is over.Denial?Maybe.But she really just don't want to be reminded of it.Because she wants to deal with it.Deal with what would eventually happen anyway.Something greater may be awaiting anyway?
prancing to your tune
11:28 PM
Monday, March 29, 2004
Sunday.It wasn't too bad.The little fairy had lunch with the Prince.It was all right.She was kind of hoping that she could spend the day with him,but i guess not.He wanted to be somewhere else.But she was not alone.Someone was with her.And she had fun.It's not that difficult i suppose.
Learning to trust that God will make His presence known to her constantly.She wants to stay strong.Can she do it?Or will she break down in disappointment?Again?
prancing to your tune
2:43 PM
Sunday, March 28, 2004
The fairy is thinking of her Prince.And she cannot go to sleep.She thinks about her back then usual saturday nights at his house.Falling asleep side by side.In his arms.No more.The cough is going away, but it only bugs her at night.It's not helping her sleeplessness.She feels depressed.But she cannot cry.The tears don't flow anymore.She knows though,that she has to go through this and come out strong.Because it is a matter of now or later that she would feel this void.But it's hard to let go of routine,of attachment.The Prince seems to be doing fine.Lunch tomorrow before he leaves town.What would it be like?Is she going to cry again?Her eyes are hurting.Please don't make her cry anymore.
prancing to your tune
6:24 PM
The Pink Jewel from the Prince cracked.Water leaks from a glass.The fairy is aching.Still.
prancing to your tune
4:31 PM
Saturday, March 27, 2004
It's over.The little fairy has lost her love.Not forever.But it's still heartbreaking.Tears.Does it ever stop?No wonder that the body is made up of 70% water.70 right?or 75?Oh whatever.It's somewhere that amount.Great enough.
So why the heartbreak?To learn of a greater love.Yet the odds could be for you,or against you.Will they come back with a love so strong no evil force can break through?Or will they find greater love elsewhere?
4 years.The little fairy and her Prince.
And the heartbreak just feels worse because nothing hateful or angry was in it.So there's nothing to let your human emotion take over and help you FEEL like you are in control.Yet it's also at the same time easier.Don't ask me why or how.Ask the little fairy.
prancing to your tune
2:55 PM
Day 1's not too bad yet,so says the little fairy.A good night's sleep has helped soothe the ache.The one..one..one..
prancing to your tune
2:37 PM
The fairy is pathetic.Feeling small,she attempts to get what she want.Fruitless is her attempt.Tests.They freak her little braveless heart out.Why test the relationship?She doesn't understand.Let it be put to the test.Not put it to the test.She wants to love her Prince.Like it's always been.The fairy tale may not be true after all.She doesn't want to be led all over with her feelings thrown out into the open.She just wants things to be like the way it's been.Changes for the better - Mitsubishi Electric.Is it really for the better?Lost.
prancing to your tune
2:32 AM
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
The fear of changing tempers and missing voids creeps. The truth of cheating and deceit becoming real. What will happen few months down the road? Maybe even a few days. Where will they stand then? Where will the little fairy stand?
prancing to your tune
6:22 PM
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
Who is the little fairy of the pea?
prancing to your tune
11:30 AM
Tuesday, March 09, 2004
The little fairy of the pea is in her own world of sprinkle dust and smiles. Caught up with the magic of love, the occasional doubt leaves her torn. Beautiful is the truth of it, but being human flips the coin. Ugly is shouting, saying things that hurt. Horrid is being sweet now and having destroy everything with one mood change. The fairy isn't that sweet after all.
prancing to your tune
7:09 PM
