Every thing I share that is unhappy never gets received.
It just gets thrown back into my face, along with your shit.
And I'll suck it in, and clear your shit, and wipe you clean.
And we'll just be jolly and forget that I existed.

Non-existent.
Negligible.
One of a million little pieces.

I am nothing.

prancing to your tune
7:40 PM

patience is so rare in you

disregard my intentions.
disregard my fears.
disregard my wants.
disregard my needs.

i need time, just as you need time.
but time is no more, so wake me up from this space

i wished i switched on and off
it would be so much easier on you

prancing to your tune
5:57 PM

you expect me to try
you thank me for trying
well i hate that damned word 'try'
because you never have to try

there is no room for anger, indignance, ignorance and individualism

time is no more
there is no room for waiting
the damage done requires urgency

a selfish heart loves not
for it waits too long
for it does not give
for it does not try

don't thank me if it does not move you one bit
there is just no point


i cannot keep running after you, if you never ever see the need to turn back and hold me first, before running off together again.

prancing to your tune
5:56 PM

These are no new words.
There are no new words.
I have said them all, and I have kept my faith in you, and in us.
So I say them again, I ask again, and I plead again.
And wait, and trust again.

-
There is so much to say
And so much not heard.
I want to be listened to
You hear?
And I want to be able to share
These honesty we always had
Didn't we?
How do I stay True
As you once called me by that name
If I begin to fear and hide?
And held my words back
And kept the tears from falling?
There is so much to say
And so much not heard.
I want to be listened to
You hear?
Let me be True, once more.

-

Rush to me as soon as you hear that I am breaking.
Hold me firmly. Cradle me by your breast.
Gently speak words that soothe my aching spirit.
Patiently wait for a smile to light up my face.
Please.

Protect me. Protect me please.
Put me in a little glass jar and gaze at me.

-
And so I plead,
Love me fiercely.

As I wish to love you.

When you hold me,
Embrace me.
Engulf me like the Wind.
Overwhelm me, lose control.
As a burning flame, consume me.

Reach for me with all your might.
That comes from your soul.
Driven by the love in your heart.

When I bite my tongue and hold my tears in
And watch you, watch you,
Waiting for you to lose the anger.
I lose everything. I shed everything.
And hold nothing back.
Hold nothing.
Pride, shame.
My fiery love in that burning ache,
Leaves me empty.
Then I know that I have
Given my all.

So then I plead,
Love me fiercely.

As I wish to love you.

-

"Be angry but do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger, and do not make room for the devil." - Eph 4:26-27

-

One day this anger will destroy us.
And it will still look like it was my responsibility.
Because I made you, angry.

prancing to your tune
2:14 PM

Oh how we fall short.
But how we try.

How Love makes us want.
Want to try.

Thank you.
For loving me, again.

prancing to your tune
8:17 PM

I am a pest. A bug.
That you MUST deal with.

Oh how you must dread to hear that voice again.

prancing to your tune
7:52 PM

What a dream.
And we wake, with truth revealed.
We no longer hide our faces behind anger and sadness.

Love never ends.

prancing to your tune
9:21 PM

She'll stop asking.
She'll stop wanting.
She'll stop needing.

I hope she doesn't stop giving.
Or loving.

Have you?

prancing to your tune
12:11 AM

I'm sorry.
I should't disturb you now.

When did I become such a burden to you?
Or have you begun to think me one?

What doesn't make you angry these days?

I have nothing but questions left.
I don't dare ask anymore.
I don't dare speak.
But questions
left in my head.

prancing to your tune
12:06 AM

Shhh

She will grow quieter each day.
Until she slowly fades away into the sounds of night-time.

And we shall all forget that she ever lived, or that she ever was.


Shhh

prancing to your tune
12:58 AM

Take the pictures off the wall.
Because they are fucking pretentious.

I hate the way you are.
I hate the way you are angry. Almost all the time.

I hate it that even when I try to be strong and walk away to give you space, you pull me back and trample all over me.
Then walk away while I chase behind you.
One day I just wouldn't quite catch up, you know.

You get so tired of the things I ask so clearly and gently.
I wonder if you ever thought about the things you are expecting of me, and just really, how do I fucking feel about it.

One day I'll just shut up.
I'll shut the fuck up.
And you'll never need to know what I want from you.
Then you'll never have to do anything, at all.
And I'll keep quiet till you need me to speak.

Maybe then, maybe only then, would your fucking anger go away.

prancing to your tune
12:50 AM

I don't need to be called these things I am not.
I don't need to be shouted at.
I don't need to say the sorries I don't mean.
I don't need to agree.
I don't need to change what I don't want to change.
I don't need to do things your way.
I don't need to play by your directions.
I don't need to talk when I don't feel like it.
I don't need to listen.
I don't need to be there, at all.

Most of all, I don't need to cry.

All I need is to sleep, just so I can wake at 5:30am tomorrow.

-

But I deal.
I deal with it all, and I do even the things I don't need to, or don't want to.
Simply because you wouldn't even bother with those things.
Simply because you only do the things you think is necessary.

Wait with trust.
Sure.

-
One day this anger will destroy us.
And it will still look like it was my responsibility.
Because I made you, angry.

Sure.

prancing to your tune
12:42 AM

It is kinda strange, this slight pretension I feel.
Perhaps it is the repression of these desires that we do not speak of.
I am repressed.
And frustrated.

But I cannot speak.

And I do not want to wait for when you want it, and go along.
I want to want.
And I want what I want.
And I want to ask for what I want.
And get what I want.

I want to want.

prancing to your tune
12:41 AM

Protect me, protect me.
Put me in a little glass jar and gaze at me.

I have stopped feeling important.
That is why I speak of urgency and time.

I have stopped feeling special.
That is why I speak of actions/words and intentions.

I think I know you love me still.
But it's getting hard to be convicted of it now.
You've lost a fire, and now I cannot tell.

-

Rush to me as soon as you hear that I am breaking.
Hold me firmly. Cradle me by your breast.
Gently speak words that soothe my aching spirit.
Patiently wait for a smile to light up my face.
Please.

Protect me. Protect me please.
Put me in a little glass jar and gaze at me.

prancing to your tune
3:15 PM

Words are never sufficient.
Your signs mislead.

And I look for these things to find confidence in you, in your love these days.

I have lost a certain sense of surety from you.

prancing to your tune
11:07 PM

I want this so much I ache to wait.

Hurry the days to come.

prancing to your tune
3:20 PM

The world is my playground.
I seem to have stopped playing.

prancing to your tune
1:04 PM

And an ogre snoring in the night...shh

prancing to your tune
11:51 PM

Change
Takes so long to get used to.

Change
Takes so much away from me.

Change
Wants so much from me, too much.


Help me.

prancing to your tune
11:31 PM

I have forgotten what it is like to be overwhelmed by us.

I miss you, all of you.
Everything about you.

Do not resign yourself to such circumstances, my love.
But fight them, fight them hard.
And overwhelm me once more, I plead.


-


Loneliness.
Got to be good.
Hold it back, hold it back.
I can't. I don't want to.
Take me please, say you want me so much too.
Alone-ness.
Come home once more, like before.
Come home to you, come home to me.
And grant me the simple joy of falling asleep side by side.

-

Change.
Un-change.

prancing to your tune
1:52 AM

There is so much to say
And so much not heard.
I want to be listened to
You hear?
And I want to be able to share
These honesty we always had
Didn't we?
How do I stay True
As you once called me by that name
If I begin to fear and hide?
And held my words back
And kept the tears from falling?
There is so much to say
And so much not heard.
I want to be listened to
You hear?
Let me be True, once more.

prancing to your tune
3:51 AM

Throw me off
Off guard
Stop crying you say
Stop making me cry I plead

-

Alone in my tiredness
And I thought I found you there
To help me up
Tables turned so quickly
And anger succeeds
Over my ache
Left more alone
Perhaps it is better alone

-

Is this what is to come?

prancing to your tune
5:12 PM

I do not know who you are becoming
When you do not seem to wonder who I am anymore.

And I reckon perhaps these days, I have become 'insufficient.'
Perhaps these days, I am not good enough for you anymore.
Tell me otherwise, but fail to see how much I believe in these words.
Tell me otherwise, but fail to see how much you have done to make me feel such.

And perhaps I do not deserve you anymore.


And I cringe at myself for allowing such thoughts.
But fail to see how real these thoughts have become.

I wish you well.
I wish me well.
And I sincerely wish you enough.


Please say I am enough.

prancing to your tune
12:20 PM

/I wonder what moves you now

prancing to your tune
11:58 AM

I have never walked away before.
And if I do, now we know that I'd walked back the same way
Just to have you smile.

"Be angry but do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger, and do not make room for the devil." - Eph 4:26-27


Hush hush my love.
There is no need for shouting.

Don't leave me like I am nothing.

prancing to your tune
2:40 PM

Take me to and fro
Between joy and pain
I am tired, I am tired
Let me be
Squatting in the middle
Hands clasped over my ears

And cry.
Stop taking me to and fro
Between joy and pain.
I am tired, I am tired.

prancing to your tune
12:46 PM

Charm me with these words new.
Take me someplace magical
Of elvian dreams and fantasies.
Where Fairies dance
and you take my hand and glide along.

Charm me with these words new.

prancing to your tune
1:35 AM

And so I plead,
Love me fiercely.

As I wish to love you.

When you hold me,
Embrace me.
Engulf me like the Wind.
Overwhelm me, lose control.
As a burning flame, consume me.

Reach for me with all your might.
That comes from your soul.
Driven by the love in your heart.

When I bite my tongue and hold my tears in
And watch you, watch you,
Waiting for you to lose the anger.
I lose everything. I shed everything.
And hold nothing back.
Hold nothing.
Pride, shame.
My fiery love in that burning ache,
Leaves me empty.
Then I know that I have
Given my all.

So then I plead,
Love me fiercely.

As I wish to love you.

prancing to your tune
12:54 AM

When did Pride take Its place?
The Self became so important, too important.
And it has knocked me over this time,
Knocked me over hard.
I have lost.
Removed layers of shame from
More than my face.
Refused to move when you said
Goodbye.
Blink back tears.
Looked for you to say I will stay, I want to
Stay.
Bend my head low in
Shame again.
I no longer know shame.
Yet still I am, with
All I have,
Here.
No pride, not
Even shame now.
I am, with
All I could have,
Here.
And still my love,
It hardly is enough,
Enough for you.

prancing to your tune
12:51 AM

But for knowing
it is
him I want,
and having known
that for a while
already.
For wanting
his everything.
For wanting to give
him everything,
a whole, entire
being that is me.
Commitment,
and as long as
eternity
can spare us.


And that like a seal,
that the world
may know
that I love no other.

When could, shall be?

prancing to your tune
3:34 AM

You are mine
And I, Yours.

Your being runs through me now
And I am still wanting more.

prancing to your tune
10:58 PM

You will never need to know
The depths of my indulgence
As long as you know of them.
And to know them and
Never once held me back,
To have let me fly away or
Crawl under,
I stand here, amazed.

At us. You.
How you love me.
And then I know, again,
Just how much
I do not deserve you.


-Less than 4 days now.

prancing to your tune
2:38 AM

I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
But fighting all the demons will take time
It will take time

The angels they burn inside for us
The devils they burn inside of us

-

Clear my head now, clear
I do not want to be uncertain
I do not want any possibilities
I just want the surety, of wanting you

Help me, someone.

-

16 Days.
And things will be real again.

prancing to your tune
12:17 PM

To Joanne

-

"So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee"


-
2 March 2006

prancing to your tune
11:48 PM

i carry your heart with me, i carry it in my heart
i am nvr without it
anywhr i go you go, my dear;
and whtever is done by only me is your doing, my darling
i fear no fate, for you are my fate, my sweet
i want no world, for beautiful you are my world, my true
and it's you are whtever a moon has always meant
and whtever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher thn the soul can hope or mind can hide
and this is the wonder thts keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart,
i carry it in my heart

-E. E. Cummings

prancing to your tune
11:14 PM

Come home.

Please hurry the days, would you?

prancing to your tune
12:18 AM

I ache,
Tho silently disguised.
And it hurts more to see all your faces,
Worry.
I bend my head, shamed perhaps,
At your generosity and smile.
Still I dream,
That tomorrow would be good for me.
And all of you, Papa, Mama and brother too.

And you and me.

Your lil' girl is staying strong,
And fighting hard.
Won't you do the same for her?

prancing to your tune
4:48 PM

Your generosity overwhelms.
Your kinda lovin' amazes me.

Your sincerity
Compels.

Me to love you whole.

prancing to your tune
12:46 AM

Renew these promises
Make tomorrow true
Let us come back to the
Yesteryear
Of innocent love, youth
And a mature desire, of
surety, consciously.
Patiently.
We wait.
For tomorrow's truth
Where promises now spell
Eternal vows.
Desire never ending,
And love real.

prancing to your tune
3:31 PM

Question me, and what shall I say.
I am no perfect being, just another
with her own indulgences.
It is not mere pleasure,
Not a simple go with the flow.
But one of knowing,
desire, and surety.
Of consciousness and true being,
With emotions tied and
Emotions real.


And then the simpleness, of just simply,
Wanting you.

prancing to your tune
1:05 AM

You and me, so much
We've learnt.
To love
And to return.

It's been a great year passed, if
time measured even meant anything.

-
-







Just You and I.
And we can fly.


We will see what tomorrow means.

prancing to your tune
2:23 AM

Of realisation and confession.
Come within me.
And I within You.
To love as You.
For You first loved us.

prancing to your tune
6:21 PM

It was all planned for.
Way before. Way before.
And no one said a word.
Nor gave any hints.

Smells of glorious food.
Shadows in the corners.

You got me.




We can fly.

prancing to your tune
7:52 PM

Don't touch me.

prancing to your tune
1:25 AM

My body,
Not quite
Your escape.

prancing to your tune
1:11 PM

You spoke in such
Dreamlike manner.
And cursed me with
The temptress' lust.
I yearned,
But felt no grasp.
Fell flat on my front.
You wake from your dream.
But for me I sleep,
Curse unbroken.



Thrash my apology.
Forgive your bluntness.
Trust your intentions.
Let it go. Let the hurt go.

prancing to your tune
2:25 PM

I'm still dreaming
for that
One Fine Day.

You'll gonna want me.
And I'm gonna want you.
More.

prancing to your tune
1:34 PM

Go ahead.
Yell.
Frustrated.
Be irritated.
Really. It's no problem.
Not at all.
When all I want you to know,
Is how much I want you home.

prancing to your tune
9:35 PM

Sometimes, disappointment crashes unto you after a fantastic evening.
And I swear, really, that you will never be ready for it.

Caught unaware.

I miss you already.

prancing to your tune
1:07 PM

Plans. Plans. Plans.

Didn't I say that with you and I,
We can fly?

prancing to your tune
3:08 PM

Just you and I.
We can fly.

prancing to your tune
6:31 PM

It's pretty amazing how they learn to forgive, accept.
It's pretty amazing how they love.

prancing to your tune
5:45 PM

He had to wait, and that did not please him much.
She tried to get him earlier, he could not be found.
Then I suppose, if she had gotten him earlier, he would not have had to wait so long.
That would have pleased him, would it not?

And so where 'what ifs' do not reverse time, 'forget it' does not undo hurt.

Comfort.

Constant renewal also means a constant need for renewal.
A constant backslide is happening, has been happening.
At least there is a constant.
He is her constant.

Comfort.

How much waiting is enough?
How many times has she had to wait instead?
But to count and calculate is to anger the stars, and shift paradigms.
How then, was it so difficult for him today?
Too much expectations.
Maybe, to learn to deal with expectations and acceptance, he should start.
For it is not often that he has had to wait.

Close in.
Speak no more.
She is tired to explain what has upset her.
She is tired of having to ask for him to make her happy, to tell of what to do even.
Maybe she should just wait.
As if waiting is such a game to play.

Comfort.
As he sleeps.

prancing to your tune
2:22 AM

Openness.
Willingness.
A constant renewal you allow us.

I love you.

prancing to your tune
1:35 PM

I'm losing something of you.
That I cannot put a finger to.
To trust that you love all the same,
And that I do too.
I'm fighting between allowing myself to be hurt,
And to be indifferent.
And I wished it would be neither.
Your touch I don't need.
Your presence unreal,
If you are here,
And yet do not listen.

No energy. No attention.
Can you keep up?
Even whilst I run on a half empty tank?

prancing to your tune
7:49 AM

His gaze never left her face.
His lips twitched into a slight smile.
He watched her and as she turned around, he said "I love you."

She tried to contain it, her lips tight.
She wanted to smile but couldn not force her lips to part.
Seconds ticked away.

"Did you just burp?"
"Er ya." She said shyly. "You could smell?"
She cringed as he nodded.

In embarrassment, she put her hands over her face and whined.
"Oh no, I've completely spoilt the moment!"

But still, he held her close.

prancing to your tune
7:05 PM

I love you.
Even when I didn't like you, I loved you.



To change is a tad too much to ask.
Be patient with me,
And maybe change will come without asking.

prancing to your tune
5:02 PM

Point my toes and dance.
If I can catch the rhythm.

prancing to your tune
10:01 PM

Would you love me less, if I became any different?

If I smoked a cigarette and wore high heels.
If I smiled a little less, and kept my thoughts to myself.
And cried a little more, and still get angry at you.
If I now had less to say, and my mind now becomes a blank.
If I start to be in a daze, yet crave for your attention.
And I no longer seem to be who I used to be.

But if you really would love me less,
Then who would I then become?

prancing to your tune
2:48 PM

Today.

I shall see you later.

prancing to your tune
12:25 PM

Let me sleep early.
And the night shall pass.
Sun will rise
And I'll be a day closer to seeing you,
My Prince.

prancing to your tune
12:14 AM

She is tired.
She is bored.
She needs rest.
She needs company.

She wants him home.


I said,"Come home now?"

prancing to your tune
3:30 PM

10 day trip.
Go do well.
And may 10 days pass,
Like tomorrow comes.

prancing to your tune
1:25 PM

It was never you,
Just me all along.
I have been breaking inside,
But you never knew.
Notice me love.
Watch me more.
I want more than your presence,
I crave your entire being.
So be with me,
All of you,
I will not settle for less.
And love me,
As you have always. More.
Help me through,
My guide and support.
I know I can deal,
With you beside.
My love.
My all.

prancing to your tune
3:00 AM

Drifting apart.
Sapped into the mundane.

Conversations, few.

What now, I ask.
How did we come here?

prancing to your tune
1:23 PM

Snap this moment.
Hold me the next.
Say we're sorry,
And smile again.
And then you roar.
I wished we'd chill,
And breathed a little.
As the scenes change,
I know we're for real.
A little more patience.
A little less anticipation.
Ask one thing fewer,
Give two more away.

And maybe,
Just maybe,
We'll gain a little love.

prancing to your tune
11:44 PM

Mood.
Yours.
Erratic lately.
You're not interesting enough.
You're not intersted enough.
I'm not complaining.
Why are you?

Smudged across my eyes.
Tear stained.
Mascara,
Beauty undone.
And you probably didn't even know.

And so I say again.
I will keep on talkin.
Tell me when to stop.

prancing to your tune
8:31 PM

You scare me sometimes, really.

prancing to your tune
12:43 AM

Yes. Call me when, no, if you want to.

And listen,
only when you feel like it.

I'll keep talkin.
Tell me when to stop.

prancing to your tune
2:10 PM

Joy through pain.
We rise again.
Love,
My boy.
'Tis not in vain.

On borrowed time, I treasure you today.

prancing to your tune
3:17 AM

If you have not found the words to say,
Nor the way to act.
Then I cannot say how you would be there for me.
If it takes only a warm embrace,
And to see you face.
Then bless me that I shall be.
To have your embrace
And to see your face.
Pray tell,
When there can be no embrace,
Nor the sight of you,
I truly cannot say,
How you could be there for me.
How I would need you no differently,
Yet how you could cut me deep when I am weak.
Have you not found the words to say?
Nor the way to act?
Since there would be no touch nor sight today.
Am I to hurt tonight?

prancing to your tune
2:36 PM

I wonder how you're doing.
It's different now is it?
I shall see you soon perhaps.
Let's just leave it at that for now.


Princie?
You there?
Be with me all throughout.
I want to keep my eyes on you,
and you only.
Don't leave in the night.
I want to think of you only.
Stay.

prancing to your tune
2:03 AM

Picking up the pieces.

Heart beats.
Breathe.

There is always hope.
I continue to pray.

prancing to your tune
11:53 PM

At home it is cold.
Recent times, Her heart's been hurt.
Troubles, worries.
All that tires her.
She drags her feet through Her day.
Her wings are faint.
The heat draining.

Comfort comes at the end of the week.
Lifts Her spirits up.
Forgiveness she seeks, to give.
Forget she must.
Her Prince, return.
Be her comfort.
Her stronghold of faith.
Hold her and twirl Her around.
Today,
Amidst the mess in Her head,
Only you can make the FairyDance.

prancing to your tune
12:24 AM

Missing you.
Worrying ahead.
Busy times
I am afraid.
Little time
We shall have.
Hold me
Kiss me
Talk to me.

In your love,
Consume me.

prancing to your tune
9:12 PM

An all consuming love
Burns
I see your face
And all I want to do
Is to know by heart
Every turn of your body
Touch the every curve
Taste every bit of your skin
To consume all of you
In one take
To know you are mine
And I want you to want me this way
Because I want to be yours
You shall know my every turn
And touch my every curve
Taste every bit of my skin
And you shall consume all of me
In one take
You shall make me Yours
Look at me
Do you burn inside?

prancing to your tune
12:57 AM

He's home.
And She likes it that he's home.
To hear him breathing.
To smell him real.
And wait for the next weekend again.
To see him once more.

prancing to your tune
4:17 PM

Tired.
Lonely.
Embrace me.
Let me fall asleep,
Right there in your arms.

prancing to your tune
11:47 AM

The curve behind your ear.
Your lobe flesh, soft.
You're sweaty from the heat,
But I stay close still.
Trace my finger 'cross your collarbone,
Kiss that dent I like,
Roll my tongue over.
My hand feels your rib,
Exhale.
Last night's breath.

I'm thinking about you.

prancing to your tune
10:48 PM

Hurt and Joy have taught Her much.
And treasure She does,
The bliss within.
And so,
Till the 19th She waits.
For His return.
She longs.
She loves.

prancing to your tune
4:15 AM

Scarlet.
Black and Velvety Smooth.
Gold Chandelier lights that circle.
In the corner,
The transit to the room.
High bed.
Mirrors. And those white sheets.

Then it was food. More food.
A Gastronomic affair.
Walked and walked through
Chinatown.

Hot tub under the stars.
Tired feet at rest.
Simple talk above city lights.
About all these years.

Dine in red and black.
Of Salmon and Lamb and Chilli Crab Crepe.

And it was walk again.
Through a big round,
Margarita at Iguana's.
Pink Guava and Avocado Dip Chips.
Retreating into the night.
Tired and fulfilled.

Ruffled sheets as we wake.
His breath behind my ear.
Skin on skin.
Sleepy eyed Boy is mine.

And we wait now, for
One More Year.

prancing to your tune
12:46 AM

In this rain,
I lack your company.
Warmth.
Aloneness.
As you keep watch.
You lack mine.
It's cold bein away.

But I see desire.
Of Scarlet Passion.
Of love given and returned.
An anticipation for tomorrow's romance.

prancing to your tune
2:32 PM

Presents exchanged.
A date we shall have.
Dinner date perhaps.
Of yesteryears.
And days to come.
Comfort.
Contentment.
Delight.
Of 5 years.
For the companionship.
For the love.

prancing to your tune
11:04 PM

I sometimes wonder how you are doing.
Do you
Think of me too?

I don't like the waits.
The missing.
You away.
Up down.
Hot cold.
We fight again.
But this time you know.
And I miss you.

prancing to your tune
12:35 AM

Pant.
Sweat.
Feel the beat.
Get the groove.
Hear me breathe.
To feel its worth.
My body,
muscles tight.
The strain under,
The stretch after.
Pant.
Sweat.
Breathe.
Fill me within.
Life in me.

prancing to your tune
10:59 PM

Let us fix a date.
To remember our yesteryears.
To await our tomorrows.
You,
Whose love has overwhelmed me time and again.
Whose honesty,
Righteouness,
And simplicity has
Hurt me before.
And picked me up despite.
Let us fix that date.
To love.
A Date.
Us.

prancing to your tune
1:37 PM

Red and Yellow and Pink and Green
Purple and Orange and Blue
I could sing a rainbow
Sing a rainbow
Sing a rainbow too.

I love you.

prancing to your tune
11:52 PM

Hot.
Cold.
Hot.
Hot.
Cold.
Warm.
Warm.
Hot.
Cold.
Very cold.
Warm.
Cold.
Cold.
Cold...


I dreamt of you. I sat there in your arms.
And then I was exposed.
My deepest secret. My greatest fear.
I sat there in your arms.
And you held me.
Would you hold me now?

prancing to your tune
8:54 PM

Monotony of Her life.
Quietness in Her mind.
Chatter across Her heart.
She feels like something is missing.
She thinks some things should change.
But She does not say a word.
She does not know what is missing,
Or what should be changing.
She does not know the things to say.
Nor to think.

Wrapped around your finger.
She lingers.

prancing to your tune
10:46 PM

When you saw me
Did you want what I wanted?
Were you thinking
Also
What I was thinking of?
A mess
Inside.
A conflict of desires.
I am really bad at this
I know.

prancing to your tune
6:11 PM

Tea Parties.
Senseless laughter.
Simple joy.

Where were you in all that?
Not in Her thoughts.
For She flit so fast,
You got lost.
Again.

prancing to your tune
5:26 PM

Fight.
Touchy.
Insensitive.
Angry.
Depressed.
Stop.

Stopped.
Thank you.
You came over.
Kissed my puffy eyes.
And soothed my aching heart.
I think this is what they call love.
You put me above your wants.
And make me your want.
Then you had to leave.
But I was glad,
To see you
Turn and
Walk away.
For you loved me today.

prancing to your tune
12:58 PM

I dreamt of him last night
I saw him
And wanted to hold him close
Then I saw
Pictures of us
Laughing, happy, and real
Taken by someone who was watching
And I wanted them to be real
And then I saw sadness in his eyes
I think he wanted them to be real as well
I kissed him
And it was over

prancing to your tune
2:09 PM

Lonely.
Don't know why.
You've been missing in Her life.
There is something about you,
that she cannot leave behind.
And there is a whole part of you,
that needs to be re-lit in Her.
Do you know?
Can you do this all again?
Or could you not?

Or should there come a time when
She should make a choice?

prancing to your tune
11:57 PM

See it's not that difficult after all.
To pay a little more attention.
To make me feel on top of the world.

Give me time to recover.
And keep this up.
In no time I should be good.
And I shall fall in love with you again.
And things would be like as they always were.
Then hold my hand
and twirl me around.
Dancing to your tune.
Following your body's curve.
That familiar tune.
Don't lose me again.

prancing to your tune
2:11 PM

With all your love
And all your want to try
You overwhelm me sometimes
But somethings' aren't right already
I don't seem to be trying
Something is missing
Maybe I don't want you to try
I seem to anticipate disappointment
Seemingly no sense of loss
Detachment is real
I wished I knew
How to make it right again

prancing to your tune
6:46 PM

In the dark you came along
Silent like it has always been
Unspoken emotions uncovered
Behind that door
Unspoken desires
We said them all
As in the dark
We hide them away
This door left unclosed
I wait for you to return again
This door left unclosed
Or did you tug at the knob today?

prancing to your tune
11:58 PM

You open the door
You snap at me
For something I didn't do
For something I was not even aware of

Looking forward to things getting better
But the bubble burst
The thought faded

Are we not trying hard enough?
I don't know what I should do next

prancing to your tune
11:24 AM

The Fairy once learnt to be strong.
Not to NEED the presence of the Prince.
And in this ability to remain in solitude,
without the presence nor the call of Him,
She finds herself sliding away.

Afraid that hurt would befall upon Her once more,
She found Herself detached from this affair.

prancing to your tune
2:16 AM

Intuition.
She seems to know.
He's about to turn his back.
Walk away.

It's hard not to be jaded.
And be guided by innocence.
Fear creeps.
He is so unpredictable.
No one can tell tomorrow.

The feeling is strong.
It won't be this moment.
But it seems to be soon.

Or maybe it's just a whole lot of imagination.
She's not losing hope.
Neither is She afraid of losing him.

Wait wait wait and see.

prancing to your tune
1:36 AM

She was tired, weak.
She needed rest.
She needed comfort.
She needed you.

You returned.
You were tired.
You needed rest.
You couldn't listen.
You gave no attention.

You left a void.
Unaddressed.
With a gentle voice, you made it seem all right.
But She does not feel that way.
Something, somewhere is not right.

How do they right a wrong?

prancing to your tune
2:11 AM

The Fairy's teamates have arrived.

Set a date.
Time to chill.
Bask in the sun.
By the lake.

Sipping tea.
Laughter in the air.
Of innocence.
Or girlishness.
Simple idleness.

Oh how She looks forward.

prancing to your tune
2:05 PM

In my emptiness
I crave your love
I crave for you to listen
I crave for you to fill my void

You close your ears
You did not hear
You did not know then
But you seemed to close your heart too

It turned out all right
Though it is not the same
Something is missing
Something is wrong
Maybe it is just me
You never said a thing

When I am drained
You go on
Continue to suck me dry

prancing to your tune
10:30 PM

Straying heart.
Distracted mind.

You appear once more.
I lose my focus.
I seem to want to give everything else up.
Just to know what it'd be like.
If we could have a day
To know if what we always thought could be real.
Our missed oppurtunities.
Our messed up chances.

This door unclosed.
Can I walk in here?

prancing to your tune
10:13 PM

Her body is tired.
Her mind a mess.
Energy drained.
Too many thoughts.
No one to speak to.

To walk in the rain.
To groove to this beat.
To have his touch.
To shed a tear.
Her body softens.
Muscles not tensed.
She awakes to 7am skylight through these blinds.

Tea mates.
Flit through their own.
Laughter. Delirium.
She needs.

She needs.
You.
Come back soon.
And make her smile.

prancing to your tune
2:35 PM

The Fairy misses Her prince.

She flits and flits and She needs time to breathe.
She's tired.
She wants Her Prince.
For comfort. For rest.

To fall into deep deep slumber.
In Her nights of fantasy and magic.
She wants to drift away.

prancing to your tune
1:36 PM

The Fairy is a happy one.
Flits Herself through this thing called Love. Life.

Bliss.

Awaiting tomorrows.

prancing to your tune
8:06 PM

The Fairy is excited.
Anticipating changes in Her life.
She needs challenges.
Progress.

She waits for Her Prince to return.
His love has amazingly overwhelmed her of late.
Bliss.

prancing to your tune
1:45 PM

Bubble burst.
The wait has ended.
But the excitement has died.
The anticipation - flat.
All with the crave of attention and the inability to give the attention.

He leaves again.
And She waits again for another day.

prancing to your tune
1:50 PM

3 more days.
And She will wait.
The Fairy misses him.
One of the things that seems real in Her life is The Prince.
And though nothing is ever really certain.
Still, She knows it is real. And She looks forward to that uncertain future.
And He is real. The One who knows all.
And She wished it'd seem more real in Her life.
Make His presence known.

2 more days.
Oh please. Shall the days hasten.

prancing to your tune
10:36 PM

Attention.
When I speak, listen.
And speak with me.
When I crave the attention, the comfort.
Provide for me.
Put me above all else
Before you go to sleep.

The 5 day escape has ended.
It's been long since they have had that nuch to spend together.
Making up for so many days between.
Bliss.

And their lives are back to normal.
The Prince, with the Legion, has set off to another land.
Till he comes back, The Fairy shall wait. And anticipate his return.

Tired hearts. Differences. Moods. Chances. Time.
They wear Her out. But The Fairy is not daunted.
She prays with hope. With confidence.
In the Providence The One has given.

prancing to your tune
12:03 PM

Lovey Dovey Dovey.
A 5 day escape.
Every day.
Every night.
She sees him.And it can never be enough.
For at the 5th day he leaves for 10 days on a mission.
And She shall miss him again.
Every day.
Every night.
Every moment is bliss.
Joy.

prancing to your tune
12:19 AM

Happy Birthday Princie.

prancing to your tune
5:03 AM

I hate it when You treat me like an object.
When You touch me and You think I'm not thinking anything.
I hate it when You tell me to eat properly when I have my gastric pains,
But leave me hungry when I tell You I am.
I hate it when You get frustrated because I am upset,
And never bother to ask me why.
I hate it when You assume the reason for me being upset,
And then make me feel like I am not good enough.
I hate it when You say You will never leave me feeling this way to sleep anymore,
But do it anyway.
I hate it when you tell me to be understanding,
When all week I live without your presence
And try to be this strong and independent person.
And at the end of it all,
Who thinks about what I go through?
Who has yet to understand Me.

I know You have not.

prancing to your tune
5:02 AM

The Fairy and the Prince.
Happy happily in love.

Absence.It's driving her nuts.

Happy happily in love.

prancing to your tune
1:42 PM

Be like the Chosen People.
Recognise your Creator.The Creator.
The One who knows all.

Like Samuel.Answer His Call.
"Speak Lord.Your servant is listening."
Acknowledge His presence.
Acknowledge your service.Your humility.
And listen.Tell Him you want to hear.
And let Him speak.
-1 Samuel 3:1-19

prancing to your tune
1:00 PM

Where are you?
If it's loneliness i feel
Do you feel it too?
If it's emptiness in me
What are you going to do?
There's starting to be spaces in my life that you need to fill
Don't lose me now.
I don't want to lose myself.

prancing to your tune
9:15 PM

Don't change our lifestyle.
Change our desires.

Time.
Tick Tock.
Give me some more attention.
Make me no. 1.
When it ticks and time is up,
Kiss my lips.
Walk away.

Tick Tock.

prancing to your tune
9:41 PM

I am a victim of my time
A product of my age
There's no choosing my direction
I was a holy man but now
With all my trials behind me
I am weak in my conviction
And so I walk to try to get away
Knowing that someday
I will finally have to face
The fear that will come from knowing that
The one thing I had left was you
And now you're gone
You were a victim of my crimes
A product of my rage
You were a beautiful distraction
I kept you locked away outside
Let misery provide
And now I am ashamed

And so I walk to try to find a space
Where I can be alone to live with my mistakes
And the fear that will come
From knowing that the one thingI had left was you
And now you're gone

Is there nothing at all
That i can do to turn your heart
Is there nothing to lean on
That could help erase the scars
And I could use a little strength before I fall
Is there nothing at all

I am victim of my time
A product of the age
ou alone are my obsession
You were the one I left behind
You've been heavy on my mind
It's been a lonely road I've traveled
And so I walk to try to get away
Knowing that someday
I will finally have to face
The fear that will come from knowing that
The one thing I had left was you
And now you're gone

Is there nothing at all
That I can do to turn your heart
Is there nothing to lean on
That could help erase the scars
And I could use a little strength before I fall
Is there nothing at all

prancing to your tune
2:00 PM

"A true friend would help the couple reconcile and always help them whenever the need arises, whether in prayer or in physical assistance."

My friend, the Cycling Preacher - Thank you.
I know you really keep us in your prayers when you say you do.


The Prince!The Prince!He hollered.And He's here to Her rescue!
She cannot wait!

prancing to your tune
8:53 PM

The Cycling Preacher rode by.

-Tuesday, December 28, 2004-

A couple in love should always be allowed the luxury of being in love.

Friends and family of this relationship should always help protect and show concern when something goes wrong.

When a third party comes in and tries to snatch one out of the union by aggression or the sweet words of the serpent, a strong and proven relationship would NEVER waver.

No matter how hard you try, it would never work.
But that doesn't give anyone the excuse to try to get a break into the relationship whenever the couple in question gets into an argument or goes into cold war.

A true friend would help the couple reconcile and always help them whenever the need arises, whether in prayer or in physical assistance.

Est Sularus Oth Mithas
The Cycling Preacher

prancing to your tune
8:05 PM

The Cycling Preacher came along.And he spoke.

-Thursday, December 30, 2004-

1 Corinthians 10:23 "Everything is persmissible" - but not everything is beneficial. "Everything is permissible" - but not everything is constructive. Nobody should seek his own good, but for the good of others.
1 Corinthians 10: 31 - 32 "So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God. Do not cause anyone to stumble..."

Why the sudden biblical verse?And why specifically these two?I believe that these verses would reach out to a special group of people whose often pursue their own happiness rather than that of others. Your own happiness does not automatically equate to that of the other party. It was never mutually exclusive, nor can it be made so.

Cause a fellow sibling in Christ to stumble, and your sins are even more grevious. Know why? Firstly, the mere thought of it is already a sin. Secondly, there is bound to be the planning of how you would want to achieve this goal of yours. Thirdly, the actual execution of the results of your planning, and this can be over a couple of days, to weeks on end.Why do I know all this? Well, from the experience of counselling others and drawing from my personal experiences.

Some people are meant to be together. Period. Why break them apart when you know that you would eventually lose this person even as a friend?
Reconsider your actions, and heed my advice.
Leave them alone.It's time to make that trip down to Church for Confession.

Est Sularus Oth Mithas.
The Cycling Preacher

prancing to your tune
8:01 PM

It hurts because I want it to hurt.

The Fairy has never been more blunt.More mean in Her flights.
She has never known how to say no.And today She has learnt.And when She finally does,Her limits are being tested.

And so to make that assertive "No" She has to be harsh.And being harsh is sucking the energy out of Her.Making Her feel really horrible about Herself.
And angry that She is put in this position to hurt.Angry that She has clearly told the Soccer Player that She does not want to be part of this game-his game.

By his actions,She bears part of the consequence.
And She does not want that AT ALL.

She misses the Prince terribly.
For strength,for comfort.For true love.And for peace.
She wants to walk His Way.
And so She leaves this all in the Hands of The One who knows all.For He will show The Way.

prancing to your tune
2:09 AM

Like a moth to a flame.Burnt by the fire.

Yes i say this again.

How much more aggressive can you get on the field?How much more before The Fairy loses it?Mr Soccer Player,do not reach too close to this flame.This time,the moth's going to be you.

All She wants is The Prince.And The One who knows all.And no more than tea mates.

prancing to your tune
1:09 AM

Some doors have to be closed.
Some doors just cannot be closed and you leave them open.
Some doors are always open.
Some doors are never opened.
And some doors you may eventually open.
Some doors you sometimes really just have to learn to close.

The Soccer Player.It's kick off time in his game.

Little Fairy.Play this game right.

prancing to your tune
2:06 AM

A diamond ring.Three little pretty diamonds.Around her little pixie finger.

Dark blue box stuck on a black board.Silver lines the words.Sparkle.
Delight.

He did get it on time.

prancing to your tune
11:40 PM

Presents.
He has not gotten her present ready.And He is running out of time.
Will it reach on time?

Rush.

prancing to your tune
12:03 AM

They are so in love.

Best friends.
Help mates.
Soul mates.

prancing to your tune
9:47 PM

It's almost a weekend romance.
As the Prince and the Fairy steal into the night of the 6th and 7th day of the week.
That is really all the time they have.
Even then,their humaness robs away precious time.

Not easy.

Patience.
Love.
Not too difficult really.

prancing to your tune
10:28 PM

Some people slip out of your lives as easy as they always slip in.

The Dark Knight.

prancing to your tune
12:46 PM

"Let thy fountain be blessed: and rejoice with the wife of your youth. Let her be as the loving hind and pleasant roe; let her breasts satisfy thee at all times; and be thou ravished always with her love." Proverbs 5:18-19 (KJV)

Ravished always.Intoxicated in your love.In Your love.Always.

prancing to your tune
11:40 AM

Three weeks of absence.One week has past.The Fairy fights her loneliness.
It has not been too difficult.In fact,it is not at all.
It is time to be spent with The One Who knows all.
She could not forsake this love affair with The Almighty.
But today has just been terrible so far.
Today.
She longs to meet her Prince so much.
So much.

Two more weeks to go.

prancing to your tune
6:24 PM

Empty again
Sunken down so far
So scared to fall
Might not get up again
So I lay at Your feet
All my brokenness
I carry all of my burdens to You

All of these things
Held up in vain
No reason or rhyme
Just the scars that remain
Of all of these things
So much afraid
Scared out of my mind by the demons I made
Sweet Jesus, you never ever let me go
Oh sweet Jesus, you never ever let me go

So happy to love
Yet so far to go
You lead me on to where I've never been before

/The Little Fairy of the Pea
:To my friends with broken wings.

prancing to your tune
12:15 AM

The Prince is in the Legion and he is often away.Every week,the Fairy and him can only wait for the sixth and seventh day till they meet.And being in the Legion tires the Prince out.And his temper changes.His patience is tested.And the Fairy can only learn to understand.

While they wait to see the answers of The One who knows all,they work at the humaness of both their hearts.Till the day their love is made true,the Fairy prays.

prancing to your tune
6:51 PM

All is good with the Fairy and the Prince.
But their future is not sealed.
Till it is sealed in the Divine Union made in the name of The One who knows all.
And it is in this Divine Union that brings the uncertainty.
The union itself.The Prince's Kingdom.The Queen.The Will of The One.Where?
The after-life of the union.The Little Ones.Where?
All to do The Will of The One.Where?
But They will do The Will of The One.
And everyday They seek to know Their next step.
Looking forward though,to the day They seal Their hopes in the Divine Union.

Lord, You say "Ask and you shall receive."And i ask in faith.And i ask with perseverance.In devotion i make my prayer.But Father, let Your Will be done upon me.Amen.

prancing to your tune
12:01 AM

Reunite.
The Prince and the Fairy.Yes they have reunited.
Seeking only to love with the love that comes from The One who knows all.
Building a love affair of purity.Of innocence.
Directed only by the The One.
He will show them the next step.
And they shall take it.
All to glorify His name.
For now it is to,
Reunite.

prancing to your tune
9:45 AM

The Prince!The Prince!She beams!

Trying not to keep her hopes up.Yet soaking in the excitement of the latest turn of events.A sharp turn I must say.And the thrill.Woohoo!

What will it be tomorrow?She cannot wait.

prancing to your tune
7:40 AM

The Prince!The Prince!She beams!

Trying not to keep her hopes up.Yet soaking in the new excitement of the latest turn of events.A sharp corner i must say.And the thrill.Woohoo!

What will it be tomorrow?She cannot wait.

prancing to your tune
7:38 AM

Standing at a crossroad.
Turning left,I'll live for myself.
Fulfilling my own goals.My own pleasure.
Turning right,I'll bring Him Glory.
Fulfilling His purpose for me.
Assured of His promises.Of His rewards.
And He will give me all I need for the road after the right turn.
(2 Pet 1:3)
Like His Sacrificial Lamb, I want to finish the work that He gave me to do.
(John 17:4)
The road is tough.It may be tougher.
But He never said it would be easy.He only said it would be worth it.
I cannot hide from His presence like I cannot deny the existence of the sun.
And so I shall not run away.
But I will stand in awe.In His light.
And only in that light will He lead me through the road ahead.

/The Little Fairy of the Pea

prancing to your tune
8:15 AM

Worship The King

Walking down the road called life
Thinking how my world has changed
Since I met the saving Grace
Of the man they called Jesus Christ

People come and people go,
Something's in and then it's out
One thing that remains the same
Is the Love I've found in Jesus Christ

No He's not just an ordinary guy
He's supernatural in all ways
He's not just in my imagination
He is real in everyway

I will stand in awe
I will stand in awe

Worship the King of Glory
Open up the doors
Lift up the gates
The King of Glory
May He enter in
May His power fall
May His glory fill
All the earth

prancing to your tune
2:22 PM

Heavy laden am I
My heart is aching inside
I'm broken

All my worries,my pain
My soul soaked in this rain
Is leaving me empty

I need You to fill me now
I need You to lift my heart
For You are my comfort

Jesus
I need You in my life
Take away my human desires
Jesus
Fill me with Your love
I lift this broken heart to You

/The Little Fairy of the Pea

prancing to your tune
2:16 PM

The Fairy and the Prince.
Are we talking about them again?
Apparently so.

Of comfort zones and tidal changes.
Of stubbornness and expectations.
The Prince does not,at all,want to allow anything else into his life.
The Fairy does not expect him to stop trusting The One who knows all.
She does not expect him to stop giving his life to the service of Him.
The Fairy does not expect him to give up his passion.

All she wants is a little willingness in him.
To possibly allow something else in this life he has known so well.
A little willingness to listen to something more.
Something new.Something different.

The same willingness The Fairy once allowed into her life.
Not that she needs a return of what she has done.
But what they have always shared.Wasn't it all True.
In all that Trueness,where is the desire?
The desire to continue seeking that Trueness in their lives.
It seems the desire is no more in the Prince.

How does Trueness become untrue?It does not.
So what about it all being once True?

The Fairy is falling in love with The One she calls her Saviour.
And it is overwhelming her simple heart.
And in that new found love,she finds herself wanting to love the Prince in ways beyond rationalism.To give her all to the Prince.And in that all,to The One.Selfless.

How does she comprehend something as such?

She has understood the purpose of the pain.The hurt.
But she cannot understand the choice of the Prince.
When will she come to understand?
Maybe she does not want to understand.
How about if the Prince come to understand her?

prancing to your tune
1:51 AM

The man I love.
He's tall.Dark.And handsome.
Ok so he's not gorgeous.But his smile is the most true as can be.
He's got a body of a warrior.
But the heart of a priest.
His eyes droop with Sincerity.Honesty.
And beams at the simple joy in Truth.
His hands move only in Kindness.
His embrace,a tower of comfort and strength.
Innocence is his charm.
He,with whom I want to share the giving of Glory to The Man i love.

The Man I love.
I do not know His height.Nor if He is tanned.Much less His facial features.
His smile,though I do not see,is True.
He is my Warrior.
He is my Priest.
He is Sincere.He is Honest.
And He gives the simple joy in Truth.
All of Him is Kindness.
He alone gives Comfort.He alone gives Strength.
Innocent is His charge.
He,to whom together with the man I love,I want to give all Glory due.

/The Little Fairy of the Pea

prancing to your tune
3:17 PM

"Do you see what a loving Father I have been? That I have loved you enough to cause the pain to draw you to Myself?"

The Fairy is beginning to comprehend.To see the picture.
And it has brought Her a certain kind of Hope.Not Hope by itself.It alone disappoints remember?A kind of trust in The One who knows all.A kind of trust that is without fear.

"'...come on; let's explore this together." Some of you are at that place right now. Some of you are at that place where the Lord is saying, "I want you to just begin to study the Catholic faith, to take it seriously enough to give it a hearing." And you've said, "No, no, no," and the Lord is now saying, "Come on, come with me. It isn't mindless. It isn't emotionalism. Come on and explore. Let's do this pilgrimage together." My heart was truly set free with a joy to study."

Lord, I will go wherever you want me to go. I will say whatever you want me to say. I will do whatever you want me to do. I will give away whatever you want me to give away.

prancing to your tune
2:36 PM

Accepting and trusting The Word of The One who knows all is so difficult.Not that She does not want to.The Fairy knows she should and more so,She knows She wants to.For all glory is what She wants to offer to The One.To give up everything to follow Him.All obedience.

But no one can ever teach trust.How do you go about doing it?The answer really is-simply trust.But how?When the canniving Doubt creeps in and out of your head.In the world of mechanical minds,everyone is blind without a practical method.

Someone show The Fairy how.

All She can ask for is Grace.Grace from The One who knows all.For only His Grace is sufficient for Her.And Everyone else.Grace She may not deserve but Grace is what She will seek.And grace is what will be given for It is already given.She just has to trust.

prancing to your tune
4:01 PM

Just what exactly is the Fairy dealing with now?Inside Her,she is sadly confused,confusedly sad.

She is dealing with the loss of a soulmate.Not that they cannot be soulmates anymore.But it will take some time before She can treat the Prince normally.For now,the soulmate connection is fuzzy.

The loss of a companion.Someone who she enjoyed so much the company of.

Aloneness.Loneliness.

The loss of her comfort zone.For things have changed.

The loss of a direction.For they once had plans.Plans with faith.

The loss of a constant support of her relationship with The One who knows all.

She is also dealing with acceptance.The acceptance of reality.

The acceptance of the Word of the One who knows all.And to support wholly the surrender to Him.

She yearns to cry for there is sadness within.But the trying to deal is telling Her to be strong.And She can only tear.Depending not on Herself,but on the strength of the One who knows all.She knows she can get through this.

prancing to your tune
11:24 PM

The Fairy needs to cry.And she doesn't want to cry alone.But there is only one person whom she can cry out her soul to and feel better.For no one else offers that unspoken comfort besides The One who knows all.No one else.Any other will not allow her to open her floodgates fully and would only leave her feeling half ready to face the morning again.
That one person besides The One who knows all-The Prince.

Even if he is the source of her hurt.The reason for her tears.Only with him can she find true comfort in someone less than The One who knows all.
And she looked for him today.Seeking the comfort that she needs.Wanting only to cry with the one who has promised to be a friend.And nothing more.But he couldn't be there.Physical tiredness was his reason.Emotional awkwardness probably what he feared.
And so the night is ending.And the Fairy did not cry.The tears just aren't falling.Though her heart aches with a yearning for release.

Leaving her not ready at all for tomorrow.

prancing to your tune
4:39 PM

The Prince seems sure.Reckon it is time to close this door to the story of the Prince and the Fairy.And stay,not behind the door,but at the front and only walk ahead.
Sounds like it is not much of a chore.Sounds.
But the Fairy is standing at a junction.The Prince has turned left.She could follow behind till she finds another turn.Or she could turn right or walk straight.Not knowing where any of the paths is going to lead her to.But turning left with the Prince ahead offers her a vision of something to look forward to.
Hope.Deception.
Any way she takes though,the Prince shall not be by her side anymore.That is for sure.And the only One who can be by her side is the One who knows all.

In faith,there has to be hope.
But hope alone is a disappointment.
So have faith in the Lord with hope,
For the One you trust in does not disappoint.

Today the Prince shared:
"The New is in the Old contained.And the Old in the New explained."

The Holy Book of the One who knows all is infinitely true.For despite the many authors of the books and the timespan over the writing of them-It speaks only of one Truth-The Sacrifice of the One who knows all.

Yet the Fairy saw the message that was not meant to be.The old in her will always stay with her,even in the new.And she can never comprehend the events of the old if she does not allow the new in her to be true.
But bringing in the new is so difficult.She is like the promised ones.Blind and reluctant.Hence bringing about their own death and condemnation.
Where does her future hold?

He doesn't want to talk about them anymore,for fear of bringing more hurt to the Fairy.Yet he asks.And asks.Of how she is doing.Knowing she is not fine.Yet seeking the reason still.

It pains her to see the ease in the Prince.And she wonders if it pains him to see the brokenness in her..

prancing to your tune
6:10 AM

Longing.Longing for someone to shower her with affection.Longing for someone for her to shower her affection on.Longing for that one person she can do that to.Longing for the Prince.

No one else comes close.

prancing to your tune
3:56 PM

Love is the will to commit.

To say "I love my family and friends" is to commit all respect and honour for them.To commit all willingness to care and help at anytime.To commit all support you can give.To commit all loyalty.TO commit all trust in them that they'd be loyal.
To say "I love my boyfriend/girlfriend/husband/wife" is to commit all of the above.With a commitment of faithfulness.

To say "I love God" is to commit your life to Him-Honour,Respect,Willingness,Loyalty,Trust,Faithfullness.More.

I say I want to love God,but am I able to let go of my life.In full surrender to Him.

The Fairy wants to love the Prince.Committing with all faithfulness,depending only on all possible commitment to The One who knows all.A leap of faith,all so familiar.Why does it seem so strange to the Prince now?
Different beliefs,different perceptions.What are they without the willingness to let Truth change?They are nothing but stumbling blocks to human progress.

The One who knows all is far from fickle.
Then why the constant change of mind O Sweet Prince.If it is all led by Him.
Did you falter in your judgement?
I do not judge you,but only ask that you
Seek all the answers you have all over again.
If it is uncertainty in this love affair you have,
Then i can only pray for your trust.
Not in fallible me,but in the Constant One Who knows all.
Then why do you disinterest yourself from me?
Is it that easy for you?
Has it only been nothing more than companionship all these time?
Are we not soulmates as you say we were?
In your disinterest,you disregard all we shared.
Slapped away as nothing more than good times spent.
For all your beliefs drive you to make decisions,
That slaps its effects right in my face.
A change of heart is all i pray for you.
Or is your heart already changed...somebody else perhaps?
Will you trust Him with me?

/The little Fairy of the Pea

prancing to your tune
6:08 AM

Butterfly

When you love someone so deeply
They become your life
It's easy to succumb
To overwhelming fears inside
Blindly I imagined
I could keep you under glass
Now I understand to hold you
I must open up my hands
And watch you rise

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Oh, fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

I have learned that beauty
Has to flourish in the light
Wild horses run unbridled
Or their spirit dies
You have given me the courage
To be all that I can
And I truly feel your heart
Will lead you back to me
When you're ready to land

I can't pretend these tears
Aren't overflowing steadily
I can't prevent this hurt
From almost overtaking me
But I will stand and say goodbye
For you'll never be mine
Until you know the way it feels to fly

Butterfly

prancing to your tune
6:00 AM

The Fairy cringes whenever she hears the Prince talk about the Cousin from his kingdom.Of course they are cousins by marriage and so is all right should they date.And of course it will be so much easier,having lived in the same kingdom,same practices,same perceptions of their belief.Never would the Prince face any objections like he would with the Fairy.Will the attraction between the Prince and his Cousin grow?She fears.Her braveless heart curls up with the idea.

Digging up her chest of Treasure,she found promises of the Prince from before.Promises not of eternity,but of the will to learn to love.

Who can ever measure up to the faithfulness of the One who knows all.Who is ever trustworthy enough to make promises.Who else should we trust but the One who knows all.

In that chest of treasure,she found also a tribute to the Dark Knight.Dated 27/02/03.Here goes:

How do we exactly define "US"
Neither lovers nor simply friends
I'd wish,sometimes,that we'd be given the chance
But will things change for the better then
And it's just a thought
Because it wouldn't happen right now(27/2/02,3:37am)
'Cause it cannot
And i'm not sure if i'd want it to
If you had made things clear then when we did have the chance
And if you had wanted me to wait
I may just have done so
But i didn't know what you wanted,what you were thinking,
More importantly,how you felt
Now that you know
Would you be smacking your head real hard?
For now i am sure of this
We're neither lovers nor simply friends

And today,she makes another one to him:

Moments,chances,
What people call fate
Timing
To all our moments and the moments to come
For the chances that we missed
And chances ahead,should there be
To fate,which i believe a little in
To our very bad timing
If it is to come
Our time will be
The Door behind us
Or before us
That Door will be closed eventually

/The little Fairy of the Pea

RockStarr,a rock star from a distant land,confessed his want to win the Fairy's heart.Knowing her distress,he only wants to be around for her.For now.And the Fairy hopes it stays that way.For her wings don't take her to him.Probably never also,knowing of the same road ahead that RockStarr has once treaded upon.

The Cider House nearby lives the man who enjoys his cuppa cider.Laidback is he.Jughead is what they call him(He only drinks by the jug you see).The first to be identified "Neither lovers nor simply friends" by the Fairy.Been there for the Fairy ever since.And he still is.Though now the Fairy don't go looking for him as much as she used to,she knows he can turn to him anytime.The closeness is still there,because each time the Fairy weeps,he knows.And with that,it is comfort enough for Her.

The Circus Clown-Marco.All fun,laughter,peace and joy is he.Even with his own toil,he lives to see the Fairy smile.He's not Jamaican,i think he's German.And he definitely makes the effort to show the Fairy that he is around for her.At the same time,the Fairy sees the hurt in Marco.Troubles of his own,the Fairy seeks to help him through them.To make the smile on his face a true one.

Looking at the people in her life,she knows she can go through all these.No matter the difficulty.What more with the strength of the One who knows all.Who can be against her if He is with her.Renewed,she puts back the smile on her face.And continues trying to dance again.

prancing to your tune
5:58 AM

It's hard to pick up her dance again.Loneliness haunts.And it is scary how she feels moody.Lifeless.

She thinks about the Dark Knight.And stops.Ideal is he.But they never shared such luck.

She thinks about the Elf.What does she really feel for him?For sure it is far from what she feels for the Prince.Even the Dark Knight.And it seems that it doesn't matter anymore because the Elf himself seems to be moving away slowly.Maybe she should just let him go since her wings take her everywhere but to him.

The Fairy's tea-mates.Once who shared her laughter and tears.Who joined to dance together.All immersed in their own dance.Who can tell that the Fairy needs them?

The Prince.How can she get over him entirely?Ever.Nothing was wrong with the two of them.Then why does it have to be like this?And why is she still questioning such.Haven't she been coping well all these time?Guess this is surprising herself as well.She thought she had everything under control.She thought she was ready to dance again.

In defence of her faith,this love affair was sacrificed.For the One who knows all.And if she had to do this again,she'd make the same sacrifice.For the One who knows all is far too magnificent.Glory is what He deserves and glory is what the Fairy wants to give to Him.

Being lifeless doesn't give Him glory due.She really is trying to pick up her dance again.And the One who knows all will be her Help.Her Guide.Her Light.Her Truth.

prancing to your tune
5:19 AM

The dark knight entered the courts,riding on his dark steed.With his charm,he brought the Fairy back to a time she once knew.Probably the only other man she wanted,this was one man she never had.Or she almost had.Entering the room of the door that never closed,yet standing no further than 10 feet away from the door.Enough to slip out of the room in time.In time.In time to come also will they all know what would be of the Fairy.In time will the One Who knows all reveal all.

The dark knight rode away.Till the day he slips back into the room.

The Fairy puts on her shoes,picks up her dance again.

prancing to your tune
5:21 AM

Neither ecstatic nor depressed.
Almost nonchalant.
Unforced calmness it is.
Not out of peace.
But of complete emptying of all emotions-joy,grief and pain.
The Nothingness is making Her moody.
The Fairy is just watching the days pass her by.
Finding it difficult to beam as always.
She keeps a straight face.

No rhythm.

Losing Her dance.

prancing to your tune
4:11 PM

Lord of all creation
Of water, earth and sky
The heavens are your tabernacle
Glory to the Lord on high

God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are Holy
The universe declares your majesty
You are holy

Early in the morning
I will celebrate the light
And when i stumble in the darkness
I will call Your Name by night

Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth

My Comfort,my Strength.My Jesus.My Lord.To Him all praise is due.

prancing to your tune
2:34 AM

Darkness haunts.All the time.And it creeped in the shadows under the sun.There is no escape.

The Prince does not want The Fairy anymore.Not at all.And apparently the truth is that she was never really the one he wanted.All these time.How true has the past years been?To the Fairy,how can the past years then not feel like a lie?How can she not feel cheated?How can She not FEEL?

Forgiveness.

Where is She going to find the strength to forgive?When She feels like she has been played the fool.When she was the one dumped and left crying her soul out.Losing her dance to grief.

The last people you would hurt
More often than not hurt you the most
The deepest cut
Leaving you in a pool of saltwater to burn
Leaving scars almost impossible to heal

Forgiveness.Jesus.

She prays.

Father Lord in Heaven,comfort me.

prancing to your tune
2:16 PM

I shed no tear tonight
For I ran away from nightness to see only the morning
Twas foolish as darkness would still haunt in the sun
But at least I got through today

Taking this a day at a time.Passing each dark night trying not to cry as she would.But how can one run away from the ache of it all as it eats into you bit by bit.Like cancer cells,it numbs your heart and before you know it,your soul fades away.And you see the death of your emotions.

prancing to your tune
4:42 AM

Her air,
her poise,
her stance of like,
who isn't mesmerized by the fairy's dance?
she flutters her wings,
dances amidst the crowd,
sucked deep into the euphoria.
She basks in the aura of its trance,
its delirium.
Skipping,
smiling impishly.
The world is the fairy's playground,
her troubles hidden away beneath her wings.
Now, who won't be mesmerized by the fairy's dance?

/Manda

prancing to your tune
8:06 AM

Desire stems from love or lust
And it is hard to tell the difference
But when you know it is love
You say to grab it before it is lost
I reached out my hand
You told me that was the way
But my foot let slip
And i fell flat on my face
Again

This is instinct.Or what i learnt from the Fairy as i write her story.She wants to stay true to her feelings and so instinct tells her to move as such.Baring all,she did not plan her fall.She did not plan her recovery.
But if there is anything else i have learnt from Her is she does not like to guard her feelings in any way.Though done out of fear,she cannot help but feel fake should she do that.And thus she leaves herself open to any kind of hurt possible.Vulnerable.

I cried my heart out last night
You wanted to know how i was doing
But you had nothing good to say
Why do i put myself through this

There are people around you whom you have hurt.Some pretty badly.Some intentional.Mostly forgiven.Then there are those who have no ability at all to affect you.A little more than strangers perhaps.Truckloads of understanding?Most importantly,there are the few who hurt you and hurt you bad.Or rather,you would let them hurt you deeper than they even thought possible.And these few are always the ones whom you would hate to hurt.Not even a little bit.

I want to cry but i do not want to be weak
I want to be happy but i cannot laugh
I want to scream out loud
Dispel the heartache within

The Fairy has been through this before.What is one more time.Is it not the same?She'll deal with it in no time.Hopefully.
She wants to be stronger than all these.But she is torn inside.The heartache is sapping her soul away.She's losing her dance.But she will pick it all up soon enough.Just as she had once.She knows it inside.

prancing to your tune
7:55 AM

Eyes hurt from crying.Body aches with the heartpain within.
I want to see the white flowers before me..
To dispel the dark night away.

The Fairy cried her soul out.In the dark night where no one dwells,She curls up.No longer able to dance.
And the morning comes.Under Her wings She hides the secrets of the night.And she dances again.

prancing to your tune
7:54 AM

Nothing so true about the truth she found.The Fairy has been dumped again.Not technically though.She was never entirely sure.But she did know she did not want to hurt anyone anymore.And to think she didn't protect herself from getting hurt herself.She tossed her emotions in his face and The Prince caught them and slammed them back at the floor.

She overcame this once.What is one more?And one more.And one more than one more..

prancing to your tune
11:30 AM

The Fairy is finding it hard to deny the truth of the desire she has for the Prince.The desire that has never once left her.The reliving of its chemistry was like putting a lit matchstick into a pile of hay.Burns.

Her moment(s) overlapped and they spell one truth.The Prince.

prancing to your tune
10:44 AM

Moment.In and out of a moment.A moment of 7 hours.And the Fairy was out of it.

Everyone has their moments.Moments when they want something.Yet it is not something they would want so badly if not for that moment.So they still want that.Yet there's something else they desire stronger,out of that moment.

And the Fairy went into a moment.With the Prince.
Intense is the chemistry they have.Hardly unnoticeable.How can anyone shrug something so strong away?
"Fairy Tale-ish" it is.But they both know that they are made for each other.
Remember the desire outside of that moment?It is not time yet.
But they both got out of the moment.Left nothing behind but honesty between 2 soulmates.

prancing to your tune
2:46 AM

Conversations are quite hard to go on without honesty ain't it?Without the comfort of being true to yourself and the other person.The comfort knowing that you will not be judged upon what you say and feel.Is that comfort brought about over time?Over familiarity?Or is it just in a person to be like that?
Without the ability to be truthful-Even though there is no deception-Emotions get hidden and forgotten.What bothered before may leave eventually.What bothered before may instead tug at every turn of events-reminding you of the dislike/disgust/hate you have for it in the very first place.

Why let what bother you continue to bother you?Bring it out to the open and it may just be easier to deal with.

prancing to your tune
4:16 PM

Emotions.She doesn't like hers to be thrown out in the open and tossed in the air.Yet she rocks the hell out of someone else'.

It's a wet day today.And the fairy recollects in her mind, people whose emotions she had once gave a little push.Remembering how they have helped her grow.At their expense.

Worry for them.Worry for the Elf to learn to understand.To accept.

prancing to your tune
7:37 AM

The Fairy loves the Prince.More than anything.And she will be there for him no matter what.And that's her promise to him.But she has let go of the burden that keeps most lovers-the Need.The future they both once shared still burns with possibility.And that's about where it ends for now.

A sequel to their story?Perhaps.Who should know but the One who knows all.

Wally Wally Wally Wally.She thinks and thinks and thinks of him.

What's next?

prancing to your tune
4:04 PM

Click click.
Cruising through the night wind to the very end of the island.
The streetlights that guide in the darkness.
Light.God's greatest tool.To help us See.

More lights.
Through a fence.I saw a design so sophisticated.
That who could have came up with but the Great Designer Himself.
Every take-off,every landing had its style.One style.His style.
The roar of the engine to announce the arrival of His Majesty.
Heads instantly turn at its call.
Breathtaking.

Dawn is breaking.
The transition from dark to light is almost more beautiful than that of the final picture.
The journey more fulfilling than the knowledge of arrival.
Cruising in the morning freshness.
Dark clouds fade away.Yet without the dark clouds,
I would not have seen how beautiful shades of blue can be.
At the back of clouds,the red of the sun creeps.
Burning intensely behind the white and blue.
Passion is what it seems to have.To bring forth light to the morning.
Passion is what The Creator has.To bring forth light to our darkness.

Renewal.

I saw His tabernacle in the sky.
Glory to the Lord on High.

/The Little Fairy of the Pea

prancing to your tune
3:19 PM

The New Old days.
Emails.Movie date number 1.
'Twas sweet.Plain sweet.
The Fairy is not moved yet.
The New Old days.More to come.

The Other - Now we really have got to give him a proper name.A character.How about Wally the Elf.Think Orlando Bloom.Just Goofy-er.The Fairy still thinks of him a lot though.

But is this fair?Keeping herself "safe" by staying far away from any commitments.Yet keeping the attention around her.How much of this can she be?A fairy?Just who is she kidding.Herself.Not all sweet and innocent huh.

Emotions.She doesn't like hers to be thrown out in the open and tossed in the air.Yet she rocks the hell out of someone else'.

When will she feel sure of anything?Then may be she can be less of a bitch to anyone.Just may be.

prancing to your tune
3:16 PM

Day 1 of official aloneness.Not too bad.

The Prince misses her.He told her that.Today,she thought of him too.In a nice simple way.No yearning.No tears.No worry.No sadness.The water content in her body remains the same,but its not proving its presence anymore.No more tears,just like the shampoo for little children.

Day 1 of the 'masterplan'.How will the days change for them?

The Other seems to be shifting himself away.To avoid being close to the Fairy?Is he assuming that the Fairy is in her fairy tale already and so does not want a part in this?To continue trying to move on?Already moved on?Or plainly distracted?He doesn't know what's been going on.He doesn't seem like he wants to know anyway.

How will the days change for her?The road ahead excites her yet scares her shitless.She does not wish to hurt anyone.How will she steer the rest of the journey.Does she even want to steer her way?Too much to deal.How will the days change for her?

prancing to your tune
5:16 PM

The Prince has returned!Excited she was.But now that he's back,the fairy is rather indifferent about it.He has plans for the both of them,a future he sees.Yet she does not feel the same anymore.A result of not expecting?Has she found herself able to deal with it already?Unsure of the assurance the Prince is offering?

A step of faith he wants to take.A step of faith she cannot take.

To win her all over again.That's the new game plan.Selfish?Necessary.But will he win her?*shrugz*He may.He may not.But he's going to try anyway.No trust.No confidence.No assurance of the future.No vision of what may come.That's what the fairy wants.For now that is.Till whenever.

The Other(remember him?),surprisingly has won her little heart.Just a little.But enough to tell the fairy she cannot be unfair to the Prince now.Nor can she be unfair to anyone else.She's got to learn to be alone.And love more than she needs.

Step of faith she cannot take.Yet.Baby steps she has to take.

prancing to your tune
4:08 PM

Fighting hard to not expect what she would like to expect.She would like to think that when the Prince returns,he shall come back and sweep her off her feet like how all stories go.But what if he does not.And reality may just crash right onto her again.That would take her off her feet for sure,just this time,her head's falling flat on the ground.So nope,she's not going to want that.Or think that she wants that.But the excitement of his return is just freaking her out.Eek.
And what if the Prince really comes for her.Is she ready?Can she be as always - not doubtful of the next step and walk along again?
But wait.She cannot be thinking of that.Because that would mean she is expecting it to happen and no.Remember what may happen?Stop.

On the other hand.

She thinks of the one who has made her laugh.Still wondering how he is dealing with things.A little worried she is.

Hope in itself describes itself.There's no need to hold on so tight on it.Little fairy,little fairy,she's got a lot to learn.

prancing to your tune
2:30 PM

The littlepeafairy said,"he misses me!He misses me!He said he misses me!"

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5:08 AM

Looking good in his yellow vintage looking jacket,he strolled in with his emotions filled in a bottle in his hand.Sounding positive,looking ahead,the fairy senses his hurt.And she feels terrible.But he understands.And so does she.The honesty of what they shared has made things easier for her.But she does wonder how he really is doing.Hurting people hurts.
Looking forward to seeing her Prince still.How will things turn out?All the 'What if's are running wild in her mind.But it's dangerous to think like that!She cannot really do anything about how she feels since the Prince is not around.Except maybe to feel better.Breathe.Pray.Smile.Dance.

prancing to your tune
4:32 PM

The Other has left.Probably not wanting to cast himself deeper.The fairy understands.Feel bad she does.A confused bitch she is.How could she have thought about putting someone else in that position when she herself never was sure of what she wanted?She wants the Prince,she wants the Prince.But what does the Prince want?Does she want to go on and attempt to convince him to stay?It just wasn't fair the way he walked out of her 3 weeks back(or more).And in all attempt to change his mind,she fails.Where would she be left then?All alone.If she doesn't fail,then it would just make a fool out of the Other.Does she want to fail though?She dreamt about the Prince last night.A first in a long time.She dreamt that they made up.That things are fine.Is it only a dream?Do you think dreams do come true?Or was it only a dream and not a reflection of her true desires?Why does she hurt people so unnecessarily?She wonders.

prancing to your tune
4:00 AM

The fairy smiled.Didn't last that long.She broke down.Wondering why it still hurt that much.She never knew it did.No signs.No warning.Reality crashed on her and weak she was."Take your time,"he said.Still there for her.A little more afraid she becomes.Everyday's a new day and she wants to look forward to it.But everyday in her little heart,she wishes,just a little,to see her Prince again.

prancing to your tune
10:25 AM

It has been a while.And the fairy is doing fine.The Prince has become A prince.Not The,but a.She has grown strong(er).I think.She's quite confused actually.She doensn't think about the Prince so much anymore.Yet when she does,the ache's not there,but the uncertainty of what has actually happened strikes and sets in her again.And again.And the uncertainty of moving on shakes her a little.Maybe she's just used to being sure.And now that things have jumbled up,she's caught not knowing what to do.The distress cannot be put to words.Yet it's not an entire distress.A zookeeper has come along and has made her laugh and smile.And has begun to fill the void left behind.And that's what she is distressed about too.Fear of hurting others,she takes one baby step at a time.Letting whatever come along come along.

prancing to your tune
5:35 PM

Life's been good.The little fairy is happy.Rationalised she has.The attachment is still there though.But how can she talk about anything without mentioning the Prince.He has been a part of a whole chunk of her life.But she looks ahead.Even if she has to talk about the Prince.Because only something greater can come out of this.Only something greater.One step forward,two steps back.She still moves forward.

prancing to your tune
6:32 PM

All is fine with the little fairy.Really.She is fine being alone with friends.One friend at least.And the Prince is not around.Only when the Prince is around that she has to deal with getting used to being just friends.But he is not.She avoids her family because she does not want to talk about it.Talking about it only reminds her that it is over.Denial?Maybe.But she really just don't want to be reminded of it.Because she wants to deal with it.Deal with what would eventually happen anyway.Something greater may be awaiting anyway?

prancing to your tune
11:28 PM

Sunday.It wasn't too bad.The little fairy had lunch with the Prince.It was all right.She was kind of hoping that she could spend the day with him,but i guess not.He wanted to be somewhere else.But she was not alone.Someone was with her.And she had fun.It's not that difficult i suppose.
Learning to trust that God will make His presence known to her constantly.She wants to stay strong.Can she do it?Or will she break down in disappointment?Again?

prancing to your tune
2:43 PM

The fairy is thinking of her Prince.And she cannot go to sleep.She thinks about her back then usual saturday nights at his house.Falling asleep side by side.In his arms.No more.The cough is going away, but it only bugs her at night.It's not helping her sleeplessness.She feels depressed.But she cannot cry.The tears don't flow anymore.She knows though,that she has to go through this and come out strong.Because it is a matter of now or later that she would feel this void.But it's hard to let go of routine,of attachment.The Prince seems to be doing fine.Lunch tomorrow before he leaves town.What would it be like?Is she going to cry again?Her eyes are hurting.Please don't make her cry anymore.

prancing to your tune
6:24 PM

The Pink Jewel from the Prince cracked.Water leaks from a glass.The fairy is aching.Still.

prancing to your tune
4:31 PM

It's over.The little fairy has lost her love.Not forever.But it's still heartbreaking.Tears.Does it ever stop?No wonder that the body is made up of 70% water.70 right?or 75?Oh whatever.It's somewhere that amount.Great enough.
So why the heartbreak?To learn of a greater love.Yet the odds could be for you,or against you.Will they come back with a love so strong no evil force can break through?Or will they find greater love elsewhere?
4 years.The little fairy and her Prince.
And the heartbreak just feels worse because nothing hateful or angry was in it.So there's nothing to let your human emotion take over and help you FEEL like you are in control.Yet it's also at the same time easier.Don't ask me why or how.Ask the little fairy.

prancing to your tune
2:55 PM

Day 1's not too bad yet,so says the little fairy.A good night's sleep has helped soothe the ache.The one..one..one..

prancing to your tune
2:37 PM

The fairy is pathetic.Feeling small,she attempts to get what she want.Fruitless is her attempt.Tests.They freak her little braveless heart out.Why test the relationship?She doesn't understand.Let it be put to the test.Not put it to the test.She wants to love her Prince.Like it's always been.The fairy tale may not be true after all.She doesn't want to be led all over with her feelings thrown out into the open.She just wants things to be like the way it's been.Changes for the better - Mitsubishi Electric.Is it really for the better?Lost.

prancing to your tune
2:32 AM

The fear of changing tempers and missing voids creeps. The truth of cheating and deceit becoming real. What will happen few months down the road? Maybe even a few days. Where will they stand then? Where will the little fairy stand?

prancing to your tune
6:22 PM

Who is the little fairy of the pea?

prancing to your tune
11:30 AM

The little fairy of the pea is in her own world of sprinkle dust and smiles. Caught up with the magic of love, the occasional doubt leaves her torn. Beautiful is the truth of it, but being human flips the coin. Ugly is shouting, saying things that hurt. Horrid is being sweet now and having destroy everything with one mood change. The fairy isn't that sweet after all.

prancing to your tune
7:09 PM

The Little Fairy of the Pea
"Like a moth to a flame.Burnt by the fire."

Come close enough.

Her air,

Her poise,

Her stance of like,

Who isn't mesmerized by the Fairy's dance?

She flutters her wings,

Dances amidst the crowd,

Sucked deep into the euphoria.

She basks in the aura of its trance,

Its delirium.

Skipping,

Smiling impishly.

The world is the fairy's playground,

Her troubles hidden away beneath her wings.

Now, who won't be mesmerized by the fairy's dance?

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Flitting through the woods On wings of gossamer

The Elfin Queen Sparkles with the magic Of the woodlands

She's rarely seen By you or I

Tho if you listen

Carefully Her song is carried by the breeze,

A tinkle of bells To charm and please

and welcome you to the sunny dells

Watch the Fairydance

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